Still ill.

So today I sort of collapsed into two hours of twisting in bed. Pain pain pain.
My boyfriends mother gave me litttle party pill and made me all good again, but only for a short wile.
They tried to drag me to the doctors, poor things. They dont know how I am around them doctuuurds.
So I suck it up as usuall. I can't walk yet, but Im getting there. Pete bought me soup, so Im sipping that and tea and hope for a change soon. A friend of Pete's has some birthday celebration tonight and I would like to go.
So, Im gonna take it easy til tonight and see if I can even move aorund =P
Atleast I am happy. I have more of those happy pills if I feel a bit blue =P


Right. time to start updating again.
Apparantly I am going to Cyprus in a month, and I have to look amazing.
So, back on diet and.. I would be out jogging if I could. But since I had a night in terror the other night, I will chill a bit.

I woke up about 15 times in panic, my chestpains had gone really bad and I had a really hard time breathing.
I resisted the urge to call an ambulance since I though it would be better in the morning if I just got some sleep.
I didnt sleep much and when I finally gave in, the pain was still horrible. My boyfriend called a hospital and I got the advice to move around. Yea, she thought I had trapped wind, aka, gas. That was the highlight of my day.
I went for a walk, but that only made it worse. So I was in bed pretty much all day. 
Im better today, but sleeping is still difficult
. So.. no exercising for moi.
So, gonna try to get my body in shape. I was on such a great path and then... I moved =P
And I got lazy. Also, here, nobody is out running. So I kinda feel a bit strange going out for a jog when nobody around me jogs! Here, if you wanna get slim, go to a gym. If you cant afford that, stay fat.
Thats also a great excuse if you dont want to exercise. "I cant be slim cause.. I cant afford the gym" =P
Well, we'll see. Thats all for me, adios.

Update from the living Dead.

Life kicks ass right now.
I got a low income job, that will only last for two weeks anyway, then back to doing fuckall.
I dont have a plan after that, I havent worked out everyday as I said to myself and the whole world I would, I havent started my book yet.
What else am I failing at.. (like I need time to sit back and think.. =P)
Oh yea. Broke my computer, again.
I just love my life. =D
But, even at my worst, I still feel good, in a way. Sarcasm is my way of life.
Well I have been working and painting all day, so Im gonna go and have a drink!


Life is kind of boring at the moment. Looking for jobs, walking my dog.
Going for my powerwalks but lost a bit of motivation.
I'll just pause this til I have something smart to write about.