† Bei Meilang †

Here we are again, in this sick and twisted word, trying not to mess it up even more.

Thinking back and what and who you are, realising mistakes that you no longer can fix. People you took for granted that will never come back into your life.

No matter how much you care and how sorry you are.. it wont make a differense for anyone but yourself. Throw money at people and feel better about yourself. Look at pictures of old friends and imagine them seeing you miss them.

Go through life with the thought of being more happy, when all you do is trying to be less unhappy.

If time travelling existed, we would all go back and do things differently. But all we have is now, and tomorrow, yet nobody lives like that.

You won't know what you have until you lose it. And when you lose it, you get new things and keep looking back, and the circle is closed. People who lived their life til the end look back and remember happier times, only to realise that they never realised how great times have been.

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I wish I had it all figured out. I wish I was smarter.

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I'm supposed to be cleaning.. but.. I'm too fat after the Mc D wrap I had for lunch in this horrible northern weather. It's seriously horrible. The sound in this house today is horrific. Sometimes it even shakes a bit and this is a brick house.

Yesterday was interesting, weather wise. One time it was English winter and the other it was sunny Southport.

Ok, cleaning now. It's keeping me warm, so I'm not too fussed.

I need to buy more candles in here.

BM, as in Beast Mastery or.. Bull Machine. 

2. What is your favorite thing to wear?

My Calvin pants 

3. Last thing you ate?

Two bites of a sausageroll. My boyfriend made me try it, and.. no. Just no. 

4. Favorite recording artist?
I can't say one favorite. That is like saying favorite movie. 

5. I say "shotgun," you say?
Dibs on frontseat! Dibs triumphs shotgun!

6. Last person you hugged?
Jane, boyfriends madre. 

7. Does anyone you know want to date you?
Not that I know of... but if he does, let it be known.

8. The last place you went out to dinner?
A pub called The Park. I had a steak salad. Raw, almost. Delish!

9. Who is your best friend?
I have two. But the oldest one is Elin, and the tallest one is Gabs. 

10. Why are you still up?
Because its 4 pm =P

11. Who/what made you angry today?
Fat kids in the swimmingpool. Or, their mothers, actually. And with fat, I mean obese. 

12. Favorite type of food?

Seafood, sushi. Light salads and stuff. I don't think about weight and shit, but I just like that stuff. 

13. Favorite holidays?
No idea. Haven't been to that many holiday getaways, just a lot of travelling. 

14. Do you care if your socks are dirty?
Not even slightly. I only wear them when I sleep and work out. Not the same pair though =P

15. Has anyone ever sang or played music for you personally?
Many times.. In fact, someone even wrote the most beautiful song about me, and then sang it to me. It even ended up on youtube. 

16. Do you love anyone?
Yes.

17. Have you ever bungee jumped?
No, but I will do it once before I die. 

18. Have you ever gone white-water rafting?
WTF is that?!

19. Has anyone ten years older than you ever hit on you?
Yes. 

20. Have you met a real redneck?

Yea. Or.. yea I think so =P

21. Hows the weather right now?
Pretty nice. It has cleared up to a nice day, in time for my boyfriend to start working... 

22. What are you listening to right now?
Britney Spears, Lucky. Its on in the bar I am sat in. 

23. What is your current favorite song?
Nobody laughs - Regina Spektor

24. What was the last movie you watched?
Half of The Hangover II

25. Do you wear contacts?
No, sometimes I wear my broken glasses, but they are mostly just falling off. 

26. Where was the last place you went besides your house?
This bar..? =P

27. What are you afraid of?
Crashing in an airplane. 

28. How many piercings do you have?
6, if you count the 4 in my ears. 

29. How many pets do you have?
Three. One chihuahua and two stupid big-balled hamsters. 

30. What is one thing you've learned this winter?
That England can have snow, at times. 

31. What do you usually order from Starbucks?

Cappuccino. Had one today from there actually. 

32. Have you ever fired a gun?
Not a real deadly one. Or, I guess it would kill someone, but it wasnt one of those sexy slender ones you see on TV.

33. Favorite TV show?
Big Bang Theory, South Park, How I met your mother, Dexter.. 

34. Who would you like to see right now?
My sister and my friends back in Sweden. 

35. Favorite movie?
sigh.. 

36. Favorite flower?
Calla? Its a white one anyway.

37. Butter, plain, or salted popcorn?

Salted, please. Impossible to get in this piece of shit country, though. 

38. What magazines are you reading?
Every magazine in the bar, when I am bored. 

39. Has anyone you were close to passed away recently?
No

40. What's something that really bugs you?
People bugs me. 

41. Do you like Michael Jackson?
Yea

42. What's your favorite smell?

smell?  I think the term is scent. And its probably my Tierry Muggler pafrume.

43. Favorite baseball team?
No clue.. 

44 Favorite cereal?
I like musli. 

45. What's the longest time you've gone without sleep?
3 days

46. Do you believe in love at first sight?

No, or.. maybe..

47. Where is the weirdest place you have slept?

On a trampoline

48. Who was your last phone call?
My dad

49. Who was your last text message?
C

50. Closest green object to you?

The lime in my Malibu Cosmo.